Just ANGRY

Have you ever been so angry that you just couldn't think of what to do, whether to shake, or to cry or to just sit startled?

See, I guess I've been a member of pregnancy.org since April 2006 right about the time I got pregnant with Patrick. About a year and a half later another site sprouted up known as Journey thru motherhood.... And that's really where this story begins.

I've made a lot of friends over there. Friends that I didn't have on pregnancy.org, two girls in particular, or so I thought.

Maybe no so much as I thought. I don't know.

I digress. A few days ago R.R. sent me a message saying she was leaving JTM. Okay, I dind't know why but I respected that. I told her I would miss her and that I missed the other girls who had stopped posting there as well.

She said that most the girls she knew who had quit posting there were insulted that no one had noticed they were gone and that no one seemed to care.

Well today I posted kind of a joke thread with their names asking them to check in and to do it now. No excuses. I guess you can't really read sarcasm over the internet too well, and that's one of my major problems.


They didn't take it as a joke. They took it as an insult. Then to add insult to injury one of the girls came out with a Private Message that I had sent her. That's not meant for public eyes. That's why it's called private.

So I basically told them that I was really upset that they took it that way and obviously I was insulted and that I was definitely taking a break. The problem is, right now I'm not sure if it's a break or a permanent leave.

I'm just insulted, I'm hurt, and I feel like my trust was broken.

I thought most these girls were friends. I was wrong. And now I feel lost.